Life seems to be speeding by.  Seems as if we are constantly doing and not taking the time to be still.  I am so thankful for the guts I had to start something new with our family.  Each night at 9:00 we turn everything off and visit with one another for an hour.  It has been a rewarding experience to just be with each other.  Now need to find a way to incorporate the scriptures into this time.  Even in the days that I have been mad this time has increased my love for each child.

I am thankful that I have the ability to work.  At times I complain about having to go, and so does Tony.  I have been working my tail off so that we can maintain our spending habits that we had before his big pay cut.  One of our family times ended in a good conversation about why I feel the need to work so hard.  Tony just wants me to be happy.  I love this man!

Yesterday on my car ride to the job with a co-worker, I had an ah-ha moment.  It has been good to talk to someone outside of my family.  Just saying things out loud makes me realize how I am really feeling and be ready to accept things as they are and let go of the anger that I have been carrying around.  This anger is eating me up.  I just want to have joy in this journey.  I know that trails are put in our path to help develop our spirits.  Unfortunately, I have let the trails in front of me bring me down rather than take the opportunity to grow.  Yesterday, I decided.  I want joy!  I have learned from these trails, I was just pretending to be blind and wallow in the anger.  It is time to move on!  Unfortunately, that means leaving some family members behind.  (I'll have to explain later in another post so this makes sense later.)

My journey to joy has taken a small detour off the path, but I have found my way back and am eager to continue this journey of joy!