Life has seemed so overwhelming lately. Started to make a weekly to do list, thinking this would help me accomplish all those things that need to be done. I just noticed though that there is nothing on that list that is for me. The times I do sit down and do something for me I begin to feel guilty that so many things are still on my list. Maybe I will add the things for me on the list and then I can happily cross them off.

With life being so overwhelming I have been just going and not finding my joy. My journey to find that joy has seemed to have taken a rest be the road side, but has yet to find the energy to get back up and continue. New goal...I have to post daily...even if it is a line. I have to find joy in my day! Otherwise I am just doing. I need to find the joy and happiness in being who I am. I need to be happy that as Mr. Roger's said, "You are enough. In this moment you are just fine being who you are."

We talk of the trials and tribulations that we are given. I know deep down they are strengthening opportunities. I know that my life right now is all I could handle, that I would not be me with another's trails. But did I really choose this. And at the same time my brain says your problems are so small compared to....I need to grow, find strength and find the happiness in being me.