I went and saw my grandma today. I feel for her. Her body is so old and failing her but her stubbornness is in full speed as she hangs on fighting the whole way! That is one question I have, why do the elderly have to suffer so as their bodies fail them. How they must feel having others take care of their every need, even cleaning them. To even touch her hand hurts her. JOY is knowing she has angels watching over her. She has commented numerous times that she has seen them at the end of her bed. She has even asked about the children I have lost. She is pretty sure that one of her angels is our first child lost. I do love her and hate to see her in so much pain. She is a fighter. It was sadder though to see my grandfather give up his fight and starve himself.